"La La Land" and Happy Endings

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All of my favorite movies have one thing in common - a happy ending.  

Yes, I am that person - the person who didn’t like La La Land (I feel the need to apologize to the world for this) because I just hated that the ending wasn’t "happy." After several discussions with friends and my husband about the movie, I started asking myself why the ending made me so upset. After some reflection, I realized that my favorite movies always end up exactly the way I want them to.  In movies the writers and producers have total control over the outcome. They had every opportunity to allow Sebastian (Ryan Gosling) and Mia (Emma Stone) to both pursue their dream careers and still end up together. It really didn't have to be either/or.

I go to movies to see the world as I want it to be. I wanted Sebastian and Mia to “have it all,” because if I’m being honest, I sometimes feel robbed of that.

I've learned that in life we don’t always get to write our own stories, my inner planner is still battling with that fact.

I want so badly for James and myself to have my version of a picture perfect happy ending.  Ever since elementary school I have been looking for that happy ending - four kids living in the adorable house where all the neighborhood kids hang out and a marriage that is never shaken.  But as I analyze that happy ending I've been looking for, I realize I have left out the biggest piece of the puzzle - God.  

In the Bible, God does not promise us a perfect ending here on Earth. In fact, the Bible is bursting at the seams with examples of Christ-followers whose lives never even came close to our worldly definition of a perfect ending.  

However, He does promise us the ultimate happy ending - eternal life.  

So as I learn to turn the page on my idea of a happy ending, I begin to see the freedom that Christ has for me peeking around the corner. And tonight my prayers sound a little different. As I plead for a baby, I will also plead for His perfect ending, whether or not it’s how I would have written it myself. 

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
— Romans 12:2